The guilt............

I made him cry, I made him sob;
Brutally with my love his heart I rob.
Some vengeance I took on that innocent soul,
I made him pay for somebody else's role.
I took away his sweetness, I took away his smiles;
when I promised to walk with him miles.
'No love again'; I made him swear,
beautiful letters of love I made him tear.
I made an ecstatic soul so dead,
I made him cry; whom I never wanted sad.

His fault was that his love was pure,
And I left him aching with no cure.
His words so perfect, his promise true;
No bridges I made, distances grew.
He always talked of love and life,
stubborn I was to feel from inside.
The guilt in my heart I will always bear,
Diamonds you find in this world are rare.
I gave him upfor something undefined,
May be he deserves someone divine.

Broken promises and unfulfilled vow,
On his feet I should kneel and bow .
The mirror speaks what I try to hide,
I have lost all grace and the pride.
 He deserves great and he will get it someday,
While I will lie alone when my hair turns grey.

Untangle Me

I watch them come, I watch them go
Nothing but a mere illusion just grow.
There is nothing in hand that I could sow,
Nothing but memories laid in a row.

Thoughts go deep and I feel caged,
no emotions to show; no sorrow, no rage.
Something deep down keeps holding me back,
there is an ocean ahead; I stand on the deck.

The lights that flicker, attract my eyes,
Distances diminish and I discover lies.
These chains hold my soul so tight,
pulling me back into an endless night.

I want to be free, I want to discover heights,
I want to live colors; no more blacks and whites .
Set me free and I shall fly,
May be to discover a way in the sky!